I’ve always been quite hard on myself and have the bad habit of not giving myself credit for the things I do; something I’m truly working on. I’m not sure where I developed the inability to feel accomplished or like I was incapable of doing things, but it is probably one of my many insecurities. It is not till recently where I started to learn how to acknowledge my successes and accept that I am capable of doing things, but it is truly a work in progress and a habit I have yet not mastered.
I suffer from impostor syndrome. If you haven’t heard of this term, then let me give you a brief explanation. Impostor syndrome is “a concept describing individuals who are marked by an inability to internalize their accomplishments and a persistent fear of being exposed as a fraud.” In other words, I constantly feel like I have fooled everyone into thinking I can do things, when I believe I can’t.
It’s an awful way to see and feel things, but it’s something I constantly struggle with. I remember being at my summer internship this year and always feeling like I had fooled everyone into thinking I could actually do my job. There were times where maybe I wasn’t sure how to go about things or how to tackle a task and I would automatically feel like a failure, and would dive into my pit of feeling like a fraud. Eventually, I would pick myself up, ask for some help or guidance and get the task done without any other issues.
I’ve learned that the only person that can make you feel shitty or incapable of doing things is yourself. That it’s important to give yourself value and recognize the hard work you put in and congratulate yourself for any progress and accomplishments; no matter how small they may seem. Though it’s a constant struggle, it’s slowly getting easier to jump out of this mindset as soon as I recognize it. But as with everything in life, it’s a work in progress.
Have you ever suffered from imposter syndrome? I would love to know your thoughts, and it’d be nice to not feel like a party of one.
Photos taken by: Cassidy Hopkins